˜ "My dream for myself and my dream for others is the same; it's to embrace your mess. I had a hard time learning that and once I did, everything changed. I found out when I started embracing it, other people wanted to learn how to do that too. Right now I'm kind of in a position where I'm trying to put all my ideas together and think up an idea, movement or something where people can feel free to embrace everything that is going on in their life; the good, the bad, the ugly, the pretty and learn that life isn't perfect. The faster you embrace your mess and other people's messes, the more fun life is and the much more fulfilling it is.
I was always a planner. My whole life. I knew what I was having for lunch, I knew what I was doing the next five years, I was always very goal oriented and planned everything out. I went back to school for my junior year and I woke up one day and it was like everything had changed. I didn't know what I wanted to do, I wasn't sure where I was going, didn't know just about anything. My whole plan came crashing down and I had to start all over. It was the best thing that ever happened to me.
A big reason why I decided to quit school was I've gone through a lot in my life. My mom had cancer when I was growing up and my dad has been battling cancer now, and so for my whole life, I have never really been static. I've never really been able to see what I wanted because I was focused on, 'How's mom doing? How's dad doing?' That's where I think my planning came from. There was always a plan A, B C through Z and I was kind of never given free reign, but that's where the embrace your mess thing kind of comes in. I wasn't embracing my mess for the longest time. I was always trying to cover it up. Making other people feel comfortable about my situation being like, 'No, everything's fine, everybody's great.' In reality, being a teenager and going through that with your parents is big ticket stuff and no one ever gave me the opportunity to say that. No one ever was like, 'What you are going through really sucks, but I'm here to help you through it and I'm here to say I have crap going on in my life too, so you can share that with me.'" ˜
Marissa's story of resilience in difficult times with her family and learning to 'Embrace Your Mess' is a lesson i'll definitely try to apply to my own life. I met Marissa through some mutual friends at Rauthenticity and it turns out we are birthday buddies! Go follow Marissa on Instagram: @marissa.baum
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